Salam Maulidur Rasul

My best friend wedding!!!

my best friend name is masjuliza maslan... we been friends since we 8 years old until now..which means my age now is 27 years old this year. iam really happy for her. she finaly get married with d guy she luv most. on her nikah day at masjid pengkalan pegoh i accompany hers.. she wears a white beautiful dress..to be honest she d most beautiful lady in d masjid among with other girl.the way she dress, the way she talk n the way she walk i know that was her perfect day.
when at last she became someone wife my tears drop touch my cheeks..i happy for her..n at d same time i know now she have a big responsibility..i dont know y...but deep down in my heart i know she will not be always with me anymore..that day she was d queen for that day...n forgot to say this to her...

Dear My Best Friend Jue,
We been friend for such a long time...
I'am proud to be your best friend...
I really hope urs happines belongs for u forever n ever...
And no matters what i'll will be there if u need me...
N thank u for always be there for me...
Luv rose..

forget N forgot.....

On this month of february, my life seems more fun and excited day by day when its come to my work hours. But somehow its became so lonely after my works hours. I really tried hard not to think about it but its seems hard to do it. This year i will tried to change my prospectif about my life... not to much but juz a little bit change.. if i could lah...

When i was in secondary school my heart was broken in two..and i dont think i will covered up the pain coz its hurt so much...i juz cry n cry when i think about it on that time..so i felt that i dont need any man to live in my life. Then when a man comes up to me i just want be friend with them then when they confess their luv n everything i will stay away from them just by a second...some of this guy cannot except it n we became enemy naturaly.. funny ha...i thinks its ok for me at least they mad at me not chasing me or something....

When iam was 20's i meet someone whos really great guy n seriously i thinks he's d one..and i may end up with him. We friends about 2 years n half..our relationship was great n everything..at last he think we should take our relationship next level....i say yes coz iam really really really think he d one for me until i meet his parents. His parents seems to care about my education background..d 1st question they ask me is i came from which univercity..wow..in tat time i were shock n d same time i felt ashame of myself..n i ask my self what the hell iam thinking...i really could answer d question so i juz said i just got SPM not futher then that.. n he's mother looks at him like..WHAT???...she doesnt said direactly but..i know when people doesnt like me...in that time i truely face the reality...he a lawyer iam juz a clerk..wat iam doing with him.... but truely i dont blame it on him coz..iam d one who said no at d end..iam afraid we will not be truly happy if his mother keeping bothering me..to leave him son alone... i hope he doesnt hate me...n wat i heard now he married to a teacher n have 1 son. i dont know what i should felt..happy??? sad??? glad???? but one things i know when i heard that news make me hurts more... how iam supposed to do????

After that day by day the pain still there.. i dont now how to subcribe it but its hurt....after that i make some adjustment so save me from miserable so d rules is.....................

1st thing i learn is pls choose someone same level as you next time u find a guy..
2nd dont to be over confident about this relationship coz something mays come up...
3rd dont give ur heart 100%

i;ll make rules day by day to protect my tears and i end up rejected all d guys coming too me...seems like i afraid to fall in luv again...as my best friend said iam seems to have problem dealing with luv...its that true??? iam asking my self again n again??? i still dont have d answer...
In this 13feb my best friend will be engaged with d person he luv.. she keep advised me to handling this matter..if i keep my life this way i may not have someone..she tell me to forget d pain 1st b try deal with it...that true..but how can i do it... the pain still there...but i will try to forget n forgot...if am capable to do it...we'll see..