curious!!!!!!!!

recently i have meet some1 who really makes me happy... well actually its not 1 but 2 guy with different ways of life...sometimes they make me felt that iam mean something to them but sometimes i felt that iam nothing to them. so everyday i wonder why its been like this..i said to myself..why this n that...and at the end i the one whos broken hearted...
maybe i juz really dont understand men...b'cuz it been so long. last i did know a men it was 3 years ago...after that i just lost in my ways of life b'cuz of my broken heart..i never even look a men at those times....this year iam 26 i hoping i meet some1 who's can lend his shoulder to me when i feel sad n some1 that i can share my happiness with...but the problem is how can i find a men who's can except me for who iam n whos i was.... iam wondering am i will find my soulmate????? iam just curious about that....will i or will i not find my truely soulmate?????